Another birthday has come around and I must say that it does seem the older I get, the more underwhelming May 28 becomes. It is of course nice to have friends acknowledge and remember the day and pass on their best wishes and this has become the part of my birthday that I really enjoy. Touching base with those I respect and care about. That is what warms my cockles at moments like this.
43 years old. I can hardly believe it. I was looking at a photo taken at my 30th birthday party which I celebrated at my parents house and it is strange to think 13 years can pass so quickly. Of the small group who attended that party, 50% have dropped out of my life for various reasons. It snowed and I can well remember the Canberra Raiders playing a television game with snow gathering on their boots. An ex-girlfriend of mine who attended with her new partner drank too much and had to be bundled home. My mother asked me what we should do with her and I can remember replying, perhaps ungraciously, that she wasn't my responsibility; her boyfriend was with her afterall! But the rest of us had a nice time at least.
The lazy days from then until now have passed with an almost blinding flash and I don't feel any older or wiser than I did on that similar day almost a decade and a half ago. My life is better now in many ways and I have walked through a few fires since then and survived with only a few black spots remaining to show the evidence of my travails.
I do look back at times and wish the clock would slow just a little and let me enjoy the moment for a bit longer than is physically possible. But, time waits for no man as they say and I will muddle along the best I can for some time yet and try to squeeze the drops of life from this body for as long as I can.
So, thank you all who have taken the time to throw a greeting my way on this auspicious day. I can't tell you how much I appreciate it except to say that it has made the long hours till midnight more bearable. Now, I will take my leave and prepare for the working day and try to make the most of it in that most desolate of places. I am sure I will be fine.
Have a nice day, wherever you may be.